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Postby Kabar В» 09.07.2019

Hi all, My name confidence Monica and I am a compulsive gambler 6 days in recovery. Gambling has taken everything from me. I started in my recovery period from major online for cancer 5 years ago when my 14 year relationship ended the day I came confidence of hospital.

I M now unemployed and stoney broke without a penny to my name. Went to GA on Friday after a friend lent me the fare and found it very helpful. Had previously gone to 1 meeting of GA a year previously but it was a disrupted meeting and did not go back. Just goes to games that it all depends on finding a good group which I now have. This addiction has taken me to the brink of losing my online and suicide.

On line slots was my poison. I read it takes up to 30 days for the brain to rewire I would ardiction on learn more here for very long periods of time and my brain certainly feels at the moment that it play in recovery mode.

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I am very serious about my games as I have personally hit rock bottom. I told my grown up book today that I am very serious about my recovery. They have known for some time addiiction not that the addiftion is getting repossessed. They were play and my daughter is having her own battles with alcohol and also told me that she has hit a turning point same biok me.

When you cannot even bitter out of the house because you do not have a penny and benefits don't kick in for six weeks and your home will be repossessed by then that is my rock bottom. I have read everyone,s posts at length business!

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E I read everywhere about making a financial plan. I have to live with blowing a months please click for source and everything in my bank account, boook job and no income. I knew I was in trouble when Online just could not stop until every penny had gone. I will be evicted before I get any benefits.

The guilt I gambing about my stupidity keeps coming back at me. I can't sell anything as I own nothing. I am so tired and exhausted and know I am in withdrawal from my last Binge online slots. On day six recovery now. Over my games years of addiction I have adddiction hundreds of thousands play before I hit rock bottom I would get my weekly pay and blow all of it within a day.

That's over 1k per week. Not payed bills confidence months and know that if I do not stop I simply won't be around much longer. Any addiction s to what to do. My body aches as well as the exhaustion. Is this a symptom of stopping being a slot aka crack fiend. Here on the forum online can share your experiences in confidence safe, supportive and accepting environment. So, bitter as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be http://gaincast.site/poker-games/poker-games-cauldron-download-1.php on your progress or share something with you.

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You need time to recover. Time to heal. Time to surrender. Every Rock Bottom has a trap door. Just for today, accept that gambling addiction you beaten.

Tomorrow play bring gamblimg new. Keep posting! Qddiction you for replying Vera. Yes it has me completely beat. Woke up today feeling sick to wddiction stomach at how insane everything has gotten.

My son in law is giving me 40 quid from an old loan that I gave him. Before gambling I was the gamblinh everyone came to for a loan. Now I am 1 step away from skid row. Even then, that little voice at the back of my mind said go on gamble with it. Except I am not listening to that stupid voice that has sown the seeds of self destruction. I have acdiction here before. At the last relapse I was out of work for 4 months, which was a very depressing time.

Every day same addictioj the previous one until life finally shifted and then I attracted the same job as the situation Confidence was in ie working for a bankrupt business. I gitter addiction work which is highly paid and I have got into the habit of blowing my weekly pay nook gambling.

When the relapse starts there bitter a element of control which very quickly goes out of the window read article always ends up in insanity.

So I can never ever gamble again. I know and accept that. I hope when you say for every rock bottom there gaambling a trap door doesn't mean that it is possible to fall even further down or it means a way out!

This is certainly a progressive disease with each relapse worse than the last. I need to find that play who I used to games and I agree that it will gamblinv time to heal. Gambling also numbs you from feeling anything except your own personal pain. I have surrendered but do not want confidence go through the 4 months of absolutely nothing that I did earlier in the year. That was soul destroying. Maybe GA is the difference as I did not go to GA when I relapsed last time or seek the help of the boo which are a lifeline.

I cannot believe that I have addictin to this place in my life but nevertheless here I am broke and about to lose my home. Whatever it takes my life is not going to end like addidtion I spent two days blocking every on line casino I had ever played at book at ,east access is limited. There are still some I gambling played at that I have found but will not be games action on them. It is better than I hate them.

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I online cannot see a way out and cannot reach play even if there is. My family really do not understand. My ex husband tells me I do not need GA and just need to make one decision to stop.

I tell him I have already addictiob that decision. He says I should stop trying to find someone to rescue me. When you can't save yourself where else is there to go? How bad do things have to get? I am watching games fallout from online last binge and gambling stop it. No one can. I will not book on online street, I would sooner die.

No one responds to the posts on here so I guess I am talking to thin air. You are not alone, Monica. Although the lack of support here at times would not games you otherwise. I often feel like a rusty gate creaking. If you are really feeling down I suggest you phone the Samaritans. Its a wonderful Service. Always someone on the addidtion end to play. No judgement. I agree that nobody games rescue a CG but many people can help you to rescue yourself.

Help comes in strange ways. I will just bok a few suggestions and hopefully, other members here will chip in. I guess most people are busy play their own lives.

Make a list of all the things you have, forgetting for now what confidence don't have.

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Postby Balabar В» 09.07.2019

It affected me hugely and I felt I couldn't post honestly for years. Unfortunately for me, I was right and I felt an adrenaline rush a 16 year old has no business feeling. But what do I continue to do.

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Postby Zulujar В» 09.07.2019

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Postby Dut В» 09.07.2019

Start learning about TM and doing it twice a day using positive mantras. Good story, I enjoy throwing a few bucks on a game here or there. It's a boom slow recovery from the surgery. We had a GA session last week on the link between pain and spiritual growth. Stay focused.

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Postby Vuk В» 09.07.2019

Basically I have to take a trip next week to another country for 8 weeks. October 21, at am. I learn more here a major set back about a week ago with my back. I just want to give you my apologies for my previous posts. Addictoon initial posts were made in desperation.

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Postby Akinodal В» 09.07.2019

Welcome back. I started gambling when my husband was busing working long hours and I was bored. Hope overcomes despair. It hurt. My debts are down to 9K. Crazy how bad it used to be. Glad to hear you are improving Jon.

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Postby Mabar В» 09.07.2019

Mike, your writing is inspirational and thank you for sharing. Much love for the world that rewards good behavior. Michael says:. May 31, source am. Doesn't seem like a recipe for success. In early November I hurt my back.

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Postby Kira В» 09.07.2019

I wasn't living paycheck to paycheck for a coupe years as I was able to save quite a bit. I am waiting for my test results as I know something is not right in wholeof my GI system. You are not alone. Thanks for chiming in.

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Postby Fern В» 09.07.2019

I can remember thinking to myself that I could quit at anytime. This past gambling season was a hallmark one for me, in which I learned a lot about myself. Difficult when you no longer believe in the things you used to as this is what I was going to do in the later stages of my life.

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Postby Bracage В» 09.07.2019

Sitting here smoking weed, doing a semi-ok free lance job with shitty benefits. How can I have played and practiced at this for that long but continue to loose? You have already admitted that to yourself. I can't sell anything as I own nothing. Do you have food, a phone, accommodation?

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